Kau selalu di hati
Takku dekati
Dua dunia kita berbeza

You're always in my heart
But I will never be intimate
Because we are from two different worlds

There was a funeral wake held at the void deck of my block for the past three days prior to lunar new year and when I left this morning I had to take a reroute because the tents blocked the main exit. When I got back that evening the tents were still there and I took a longer way to navigate myself to the staircase. But when I got there I had a shock...the funeral wake that was previously there was replaced by a malay wedding! I was speechless for the second time that day. The first was when my friend gave me spongebob squarepants stickers as a gift in the morning (long story...maybe next time). So the malay wedding immediately occupy the same exact spot where the funeral was. Previously where there was a coffin, a platform where the bride and groom will be seated is erected. How morbidly interesting...first time for everything I guess.

Oh yeah, I wanted to entail this piece of entry with a descriptive piece on quenching thirst. However, I think its pretty saturated with the two days of a funeral and wedding post. Next time then. Bye.

I really want to finish my assignments earlier than the due date but as usual its a case of easier said than done. With all the things that are happening during the last 4 weeks, it's going to be hard to manage my time properly. Especially since I loathe planning. Which makes me stupid because it's probably the only way to save my sorry ass...

Look at me - I'm awake at 2 am in the morning....my sleeping schedule has gone bonkers. I can only do work at night since there are no distractions. This means that I'm like a zombie in the day. It seems lately that I can cope with this new lifestyle but its really horrible feeling tired during lessons. I can barely keep myself awake.

Well I've got lots of things to do and so little time - which by the way does not wait for any man.

There's a test tmrw for marketing and I have not started reading the notes at all. I must be insane to start revising so late but I've always been the type to drag my schedule; the eternal procrastinator who winds up panicking at the last moment. On top of is the production board which is due soon. I feel messed up.

I should be doing work but all I want to do is lie in bed all day.

I read some news that there will be a restriction of playing original mp3 music in blogsites. Something about licenses needed to play them. So I guess I won't be inserting anymore mp3s as background music.

Hmmm...looks like its the 11th week now. Only 4 more weeks left until studio project. You know what that means? Horrible deadlines and heavy assignments. In short - make or break weeks. How do I feel about all that? mmm...a little nervous but I've got my skittles, lol so I'll be fine.

stay tuned...

When my relatives come over to my house for both hari rayas, I wonder why I never socialise with them. I think one of the reason is that I don't like so many people to be in my house. Then they make so much chatter and all I want to do is sleep.

It's sickening - I know.

I wonder -1 when I will change my habits?
2 why is my face so expressionless?
3 why do i walk so stiff?
4 why do people ask me these questions thinking that I know the answers when I don't?

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TTFN

All the works of man have their origin in creative fantasy. What right have we then to depreciate imagination.
Carl Jung
Swiss psychologist (1875 - 1961)

One of the most common things that I do early in the morning while taking the train is listen to my songs on the mp3 player. It really helps improve my mood and I find it increases my morale for the day ahead.

Most of the songs inside the stored memory are Japanese songs which are associated with certain anime. Most of the time, I will recall the story and basically daydream. It would be wonderful if my life were as adventurous.

Just on my way to school today, I'd imagine what life would be like if I were to be schooling in a fictional mercernary institute. Teenagers being groomed into rent-a-cops, instilling justice in an apopcalyptic earth dimension. I think about these things all the time. They may not be artistic in the fundamentalist sense but in my defense I'm more keen on commercial animation like Warner Bros. Not everyone can conjure a story like Akira which defies convention.

But wouldn't it be nice if I could, sigh...lol
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Songs help capture timeless memories and restores the nostalgia of yesterday.

To achieve the impossible dream, try going to sleep.
Joan Klempner

It's been raining heavily the past few days and I've been sleeping in until late afternoon. Of course all of this at the expense of my assignments which I should be working on.

Talking about rain, I remember when I was younger, during which I had no computers and game consoles to get distracted with; I would be watching rivulets of raindrops rolling down the glass window of my old Bukit Batok apartment. It's kind of hypnotic and the rain never lets down. There was a big tree that was facing just outside my kitchen window and when lightning flashed, there would be scary silhouettes taunting me.

Back then, the only form of leisure I indulged in was reading. Imagination was the name of the game. Whenever it rained, I would lie on my bed and start reading furiously. The weather was particularly instrumental to my reading ambience. What a simple life I had lead before. And you know what, sometimes I wished it was just like that now - but only when it pours.

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When you open a conversation box and wonder if HI is good enough

I think my best working hours are from 1am to 4am. That's when everything is quiet and I have no other option but to do my assignments. The only problem is...I have to wake up early for school. Hmmm...

I know it's been some time since I blogged. It's weird cause once I start typing, the words just come into my mind. But if i hesitate and procrastinate, I never get it done. Especially writing stories. I finally completed another draft for my concept animation. I wonder what kind of reception it will get considering I just thought of it the other day.