I'm so sorry. I don't know whether I can contribute to my team anymore. I feel scared. I went to see the doctor on Monday and he diagnosed me with depression. I wished he had prescribed me those anti-depressants. I think I could've used them.

I don't know how my mental faculties have managed to slide into such pathetic cowardice. It's just a project. I know that but somehow I am losing my mind. I am afraid of today because at 8 I shall have to go to school again. I have to resume work. But inside I am deathly afraid. Of what exactly - I am uncertain.

I need counselling. But I do not have time for this. I have to pick up where I left off and continue the project. If I do become insane or unstable I hope it doesn't affect my family or friends. Perhaps I will cease to think normally. Hopefully this entry will remind me that I once had logic and sense.

There's only 2 weeks left, please...do not unravel until the project is over. It's 4am I should go to sleep. Maybe I should eat my sleeping pills.